Why Human Emotion is Uncomfortable

It has been an ongoing joke for as long as I can remember that I have no "human emotion." Crying makes me uncomfortable, so does having people know that I'm irritated with them, or being visibly distressed in any way, shape, or form.. If you had asked me a few months ago, I likely would've told you that it was weak somehow to show those emotions. But, if I am being entirely honest here, it is so brave to be able to show that you're heartbroken or angry. For me, it is easy to laugh and say I'm ok. Don't misunderstand me, I don't laugh to cover when I'm hurt. I laugh in spite of my hurt, as if being hurt never happened. I love laughing. I laugh louder than any person in the room at every single joke you'll tell if I respect you.One day my best friend and I were sitting on the couch and I was talking about the latest tv show that I had been binge watching (which happens way too much, people) that happened to be The Office. He laughed and asked what happens whenever a series ends, and I said that without fail I will bawl through the entire finale of every show. He thought this was funny, considering he'd only seen me cry one time in our entire friendship and that was out of sheer anger and frustration. He told me that I like to pretend that I have no emotion, that the whole facade is to hide that actually I have intense emotion. With a roll of my eyes I told him that, like Sue Sylvester of Glee, I had my tear ducts removed because they simply weren't being used anymore. Did I mention I watch too much TV? However, the realization that maybe he wasn't being a dimwit is finally coming to me.  
Maybe, just maybe, I actually am very emotional. Just like every single human out there.  There should be no shame in being upset because a friend betrayed your trust, or a boyfriend decided you weren't right for him, or because you made a wrong decision, or whatever is wrong that day. Emotion is what makes us human, what gives us the ability to communicate and create relationships. However fickle they may be. Now this is all very sentimental and easier said than done, which is why I'm getting to the point now. For some of us, portraying emotion is so much harder than it is for others. My mother can show her emotion so easily, she fell in love young and she is no stranger to telling someone she needs space before she can calm down. Myself, on the other hand, will quiet literally run away from emotion if the opportunity arises. Ask anyone. It happens constantly. However, just because I don't know how to express my sentiments does not mean I don't have them. I'm wagering that there are plenty of people who are just like me. Maybe your son or daughter is like me, your best friend, your significant other, what have you. Expressing can be so difficult.Don't give up on me quiet yet, we've established that expressing emotion is incredibly difficult for many of us but I haven't even gotten to my epiphany yet. Here it is. We all express our emotions in a different medium. What I mean by that is each of us connects to something on a very personal level, maybe that's another person. Your grandmother, your husband, your best friend, etc. Or maybe it is literature. You connect to Romeo and Juliet more than anyone else. Or maybe you connect or art and music. There are millions of things in this world that we relate to every single day, that we feel connected to. For me, I find my connection in film and television. That sounds silly, I know. But, these characters help me understand how I'm feeling in the strangest circumstances. They help me realize different aspects of myself and how I come off to the people around me in every imaginable situation. Liz Lemon showed me my dark sense of humor and love of food, April Ludgate with my love of all strange and unconventional things, Blair Waldorf with my prioritization of everything before my emotions and my intensity, Jo March with my inability to settle for anyone and independence,  and Gwen Stacy with my need to find hope in the people around me.  Maybe I do cry when I finish a series, but that could be because with every new love of a character I realize something new about myself. So maybe I have a really difficult time accepting compliments and maybe I am terrified of affection and what it means, but don't assume I don't know that. We are all a work in progress and I'm just as broken as the next person.
I encourage you to really think about what helps you express yourself, because where your emotion lies is where your passion and excitement for your future also is.